The K Word

Last Friday I went on quite the adventure and took a road trip to Tacoma WA and went to the Queen concert  by myself. I have to say the entire thing was quite an adventure from buying the ticket to trying to get a Lyft ride back to my hotel. I will share more about this in a second.  For those of you who don’t know me, I am pretty extroverted but I generally don’t like to do things alone out of insecurity. I went and saw a movie once alone and all I could think about was how everyone watched me walk in and sit down alone and they were all judging me because I was alone. The reality is people probably didn’t care that I was there by myself. Apparently people go see movies alone all the time and they love it. After this movie experience I have not gone and done stuff by myself and I feel like I may have missed out some things I would have really loved to do.  I turned 30 just over a month ago. I can say I pictured my life looking a lot different than it does ...

I have been sitting on this topic for awhile and I am sure I am not the only single person in the world who absolutely hates it. I wanted to be able to talk about my experience and how I overcame it, but I just haven’t quite got to the over it part. I decided to just write about where I am at and how I navigate through being single and hope there is someone else out there who will be encouraged. I hate this phase of my life and it has turned into this constant feeling. In the past I have been able to shake it off and keep going but now as I move through life, I think about how I wish things were different. It’s funny having this conversation with other people because I hear the same thing every time. “You are young, enjoy all the things you can do as a single person that you cannot do with a husband or family.” They are right I am young and I have a lot more freedom to do things. The thing is my heart yearns for a family. I am willing to give up those freedoms for a family… and ...

The end of the year is always a time of reflection and goal setting (New Years Resolutions). 2018 was good to me. It had many ups and a few downs. This year seemed to go by fast but also seemed like a very long year.  My aunt passed away in March and it was hard, it still is hard sometimes. I find myself randomly thinking about her. I have known people who have died, but never someone close to me. You never realize how much you miss someone until they are gone.  I have been hurt by people close to me. I have learned an important lesson of boundaries and also to pay attention to what God is telling you. Sometimes we have to let go of relationships that are abusive or toxic.  I had to make some tough adult decisions, this put me in a position to feel insecure about who I was in my career, how to make myself a better manager and leader, I am not perfect at all and I have a really long way to go. But I am thankful to have leaders in my life who give me grace and w...